I'm not one for making great declarations of new year resolutions, yes, I need to continue and build on the good practice I've begun this year, to drink less, walk / dance more, set solid priorities for health, boundaries and growth.
But I always find the eve of a new year makes me pause to reflect on the past year.
Like every year 2023 has been a year with some challenges, especially at work and with my health but a lot of fun highlights too.
Every year is a mixed bag of good and bad, and packaged inside any mistakes I've made is a lesson, and whilst I don't want to take those mistakes into the new year with me, I will most certainly take the lessons. That's personal growth.
There are people and situations I will not be bringing into the new year with me for the good of my own mental health. I've no room in my life anymore for disrespect and these last few years have been a huge lesson in disrespect.
My boundaries, my time, my energy and my peace are all increasingly important to me. I spent a lot of years in the past where I'd lost the value of these things. I allowed myself to be treated with far, far less than I deserved by many people in my life, and to live with levels of toxicity that have been far reaching in it's damage. By putting everybody's needs before my own, I lost myself.
Now I know my worth again and I've re discovered those values. With Ian's love and support I have realised that my needs are important too and if I don't value them, then no one else will either. I've done a lot of hard work on myself these last few years.
I will let go of anyone that can't respect or appreciate those values.
I will meet people with the same energy they give me.
I don't mean this in an unkind way, just with a growing understanding of those that appreciate and value my efforts. I'm tired of banging my head on brick walls, I'm tired of sending messages that go ignored and caring too much and questioning myself thinking I've done something wrong or I've not given enough when it's usually the opposite.
I will meet people where they are. I won't make excuses for peoples flaky behaviour anymore. You all have the same 24hrs a day as I do, so you make your choices and I will listen. As I turn 54yrs in a few weeks, I really am getting too old for this shit!
And I'm also on a journey to understand my neurodiversity, which means I give out a lot more energy than most! ...... but thats OK. You'll all have to raise your game, I'm not lowering mine 😜
I'd like to thank all my good friends and family who bumble along life's ever winding road with me. Who through the past year have given me joy, shared their wisdom. and humour, their time, energy and positivity, those who notice and act on it.
Kindness, honesty and loyalty are the holy trinity to me and I like to think that is what I give out into the world. Therefore, anyone who has made me doubt theirs in the past, well, that's where those lessons lie and I'll take them into 2024 with me.
I will keep on believing in my ability to manifest my own happiness and will continue my endeavour to keep my thoughts, words and deeds positive and to continue to practice daily gratitude and humility.
So I'm wishing you all another happy year around the sun. There will undoubtedly be more challenges thrown our way but I'll keep meeting mine head on with the support of all the people in my life that love me and I hope you know that I love you right back and I will be there to support you through your tough times and to share your laughter too.
365days (366 days actually as it’s a leap year!) for us to fill with sunshine, to keep learning, keep smiling, keep loving ❤️
" your present circumstances don't determine where you can go. They merely determine where you start." - Nedo Quebein
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